i fell in love

with the way he smiled

as he took my order

with the way his hand

brushed mine 

as he handed me my drink

with the way his eyes lit up

when i sat down

as if to say he wanted me

to stay

so i did

i fell in love

with the way she twirled her hair

as she ordered a latte

with the way her mouth quirked

when our hands touched
as she took her drink

with the way she sat

eyes dancing

as if to say she wanted me

to stay

so i did

so i wait

stories
inside my soul
but
one is darker than the other.
i hold onto them
afraid to let them go
what if they don't understand?
what if they can't see the light inside of me?
so i wait
too petrified to say anything
so i wait
and prepare for on to consume the other
so i wait
to see if the light stays
or if the darkness overtakes me

voices

voices
they're everywhere
telling you what to do
how to act
where to go
no one asks
no one cares?
it's not up to you
it's up to them
but no
stop
you see
that's wrong
believe it or not
he is wiser than them
and wiser than you
so don't listen to the voices
and quiet your heart
lean into him
and listen
because he's got you
he always has
he always will

your timing vs my timing

you say to wait on you
to be patient
but you see
why can't it be now that works better
no?

i know you know best
but
i know pretty well
so why not listen to what i want
it's just as good
no?

but they're so cute
and well sure i'm young
but
please
can't you see
it's what i want
it's what i need
no?

i know you see
the greater picture
but i see only now
so please
just give me a taste
sure i don't know best
but i know
no?

ok yes
go ahead
my life is is your hands
not mine
i know this
i do
sometime i'm lonely
but you
you are enough
so i'll wait until you say go
i'll trust in your timing
not mine